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You've reached me. Oh, that is... you've reached Yashiki. I'm afraid that I'm not here. Um, obviously. Really, what's the right way to leave a message like this? Isn't it okay to let it keep ringi--

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un: kirkjt, 1/2

[simpers]

Yashiki, I believe congratulations are in order. Confessing your love for someone is a big step, one I've often stumbled and hesitated on. I hope that, despite the new and frightening nature of this unknown, you'll be happy with whomever you've decided to share your heart with.

Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help make the day all the more special.

2/2

[simpers]

Literally anything at all.

(PLEASE, GOD, PLEASE)

[reimaginedself]

kirk you knew
the power of friendship really is amazing
i heard about it from a friend once
that's what anime always talk about anyway
i thought it was a bit of hooey but
here you are

you must have heard my inner cries of help

[simpers]

(what the fuck is going on)

Of course, I'm here. Travis was worried about you and contacted me. For good reason, it seems, if you've been in turmoil.

Are you alright?

1/2

[reimaginedself]

[ oh.

that makes more sense. ]

[reimaginedself]

i mean

i confessed in the worst way possible i guess??
but it's also me
i'm sure that's also the problem

travis did say that he'd be happy to hear my confession
that if he heard it from me that make him happy
rather than read it

that's right, isn't it?

i mean
i'll do it
i plan to do it

but it's also pretty creepy isn't it
i didn't think to ask travis that
stupid
it's definitely creepy
someone older than someone else saying they love them??
confessing like that???
i don't want anything in return
i love him because i lov ehim
i don't need anything back
i'm happy with these feelings that he gave me
and will cherish them
but

this all really troubled him
hearing them again aloud
won't that just make him more unhappy?
i should have asked travis that

gosh
why didn't i?

[simpers]

I can't tell you what's right or wrong. If love were black and white, the universe would lack the terrifying wonder of the unknown. Every flesh and blood human would know what to do because there'd be guidelines and rules on it all showing us the way. He'd know what to say and when to say it; she'd know how to confess and where; they'd know who they wanted to spend the rest of their life with and why.

Yashiki, love is the whole spectrum of colours and it's up to you to decide which hues suit you and the man you cherish.

Believe that there's more than one answer to the questions on your mind right now. My responses to your rhetoric: text messages can be as poetic as handwritten letters, awkwardly typed but genuinely yours; gaps in age can be bridged through mutual understanding and shared interests; and you cannot, should not, and will not make assumptions where the feelings of your loved one are concerned.

You've come this far, haven't you?

Throw your phone aside, Yashiki. Share your feelings and listen to what he has to say about his own. Speak to him and ignore everyone else until you're both satisfied with the outcome you've chosen together. You'll find that the one you should've been asking these questions to has been the one you've been with all along.

much later...

[reimaginedself]

Kirk, I wanted to tell you that you were right.

I'm sorry it took awhile to reply to you and tell you the news. It's just I did as you said -- I threw my phone aside and well, I happened to be on a roof so it went off the edge.

It took a day to replace it, but at least, Mashita and I were able to talk properly together.

You were right that he was the one I should be asking those questions to, and it really does work out when you reach out to the person that you love. Who knew?

Well, I guess you knew.

[simpers]

Good lord, Yashiki, I didn't mean it literally.

(if he stopped there, the world would understand. he doesn't, of course.)

Never mind me, what did he say? Have you two decided to try together?

1/2

[reimaginedself]

[ Oh. ]

Oh.

That makes sense.

2/3

[reimaginedself]

He actually had feelings for me, too.

[ Even reading that, he can't quite believe it. But Mashita did. He covers his face for a second, feeling embarrassed about having admitted it. Ugh. Is that the right feeling? It feels like embarrassment, but the embarrassment comes from just how happy that he feels. ]

[reimaginedself]

Yes, we are going to try.

[ Ah, so embarrassing... are all first loves like this? ]

1/2

[simpers]

Then excuse my premature congratulations and let me express them now when they're more applicable:

I'm so happy for you.

I'd like to take you both out to celebrate sometime soon, if I may. Of course, I have ulterior motives; I want to meet the man myself and see what all the fuss is about.

2/2

[simpers]

That last bit is a joke.

(gotta' cover all his fucking bases now that yashiki's graduated to "Too Literal" in his mind)

1/2

[reimaginedself]

No, I appreciate the congratulations.
If you hadn't messaged me, I probably would have done something even stupider.

But you're happy for me? Thank you.

Right! I got that joke! You just want to take us out because you're a nice person.

[ A nice person who heard his cries in his heart! Well, heard what is going on from Travis and knew to contact him, so same difference? Kind of!! ]

[reimaginedself]

[ His initial message is: "Kirk, you've been in love, right?" But then he thinks that, of course, Kirk has been. The man isn't like him. ]

Love is really something isn't it?
It makes you very happy even if it scares you.

[simpers]

Yes, it is something. It creates the strongest bonds and brings us together in a vast network of universes. It can't be outdone by any other emotion.

For this to be your first true love is significant; don't forget this feeling.

1/3

[reimaginedself]

[ Yashiki almost wants to laugh about not forgetting the feeling. When his memories returned, he didn't have the same feelings Masamune had in experiencing them.

He didn't know -- still doesn't know -- how he felt. If he forgot for some reason, if he once more lost everything, would his feelings for Mashita be different? Would he be able to remember them or would he view them as something he can't comprehend.

A scary thought, really...

For the first time, he feels sorry for "Masamune" since even "he" can't understand himself. ]

[reimaginedself]

[ But ... Kirk doesn't mean it like that and doesn't need to hear such a pathetic story.

When someone says something kind, when they think of others earnestly, they don't need to have that kindness taken for granted or crushed under heel. ]

[reimaginedself]

I won't.

I promise that I will hold onto these feelings.

Thank you so much, Kirk.

I don't know if I would have been able to experience them if you had not been here in spirit, in spirit text?? If you weren't present in some way to help me, I mean.

[simpers]

You would've.

It's your bravery that brought you this far; no one else had a hand in the first step. That's the hardest one to take. And as long as you stay as sincere as you are, the people you reach out to will always reach back.

[reimaginedself]

Is that so?

[ What a nice thought. ]

I'm not sure what to say, but I'll really cherish those words.

1/3

[simpers]

I'm glad.

Now go spend time with

2/3

[simpers]

(........,,)

3/3

[simpers]

I don't believe I ever got his name.