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« GHOSTBUSTER » TEXT ✧ AUDIO ✧ VIDEO ✧ ACTION Kazuo Yashiki ✦ DEATH MARK
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You've reached me. Oh, that is... you've reached Yashiki. I'm afraid that I'm not here. Um, obviously. Really, what's the right way to leave a message like this? Isn't it okay to let it keep ringi--

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un: kirkjt, 1/2

[simpers]

Yashiki, I believe congratulations are in order. Confessing your love for someone is a big step, one I've often stumbled and hesitated on. I hope that, despite the new and frightening nature of this unknown, you'll be happy with whomever you've decided to share your heart with.

Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help make the day all the more special.

2/2

[simpers]

Literally anything at all.

(PLEASE, GOD, PLEASE)

[reimaginedself]

kirk you knew
the power of friendship really is amazing
i heard about it from a friend once
that's what anime always talk about anyway
i thought it was a bit of hooey but
here you are

you must have heard my inner cries of help

[simpers]

(what the fuck is going on)

Of course, I'm here. Travis was worried about you and contacted me. For good reason, it seems, if you've been in turmoil.

Are you alright?

1/2

[reimaginedself]

[ oh.

that makes more sense. ]

[reimaginedself]

i mean

i confessed in the worst way possible i guess??
but it's also me
i'm sure that's also the problem

travis did say that he'd be happy to hear my confession
that if he heard it from me that make him happy
rather than read it

that's right, isn't it?

i mean
i'll do it
i plan to do it

but it's also pretty creepy isn't it
i didn't think to ask travis that
stupid
it's definitely creepy
someone older than someone else saying they love them??
confessing like that???
i don't want anything in return
i love him because i lov ehim
i don't need anything back
i'm happy with these feelings that he gave me
and will cherish them
but

this all really troubled him
hearing them again aloud
won't that just make him more unhappy?
i should have asked travis that

gosh
why didn't i?

[simpers]

I can't tell you what's right or wrong. If love were black and white, the universe would lack the terrifying wonder of the unknown. Every flesh and blood human would know what to do because there'd be guidelines and rules on it all showing us the way. He'd know what to say and when to say it; she'd know how to confess and where; they'd know who they wanted to spend the rest of their life with and why.

Yashiki, love is the whole spectrum of colours and it's up to you to decide which hues suit you and the man you cherish.

Believe that there's more than one answer to the questions on your mind right now. My responses to your rhetoric: text messages can be as poetic as handwritten letters, awkwardly typed but genuinely yours; gaps in age can be bridged through mutual understanding and shared interests; and you cannot, should not, and will not make assumptions where the feelings of your loved one are concerned.

You've come this far, haven't you?

Throw your phone aside, Yashiki. Share your feelings and listen to what he has to say about his own. Speak to him and ignore everyone else until you're both satisfied with the outcome you've chosen together. You'll find that the one you should've been asking these questions to has been the one you've been with all along.

much later...

[reimaginedself]

Kirk, I wanted to tell you that you were right.

I'm sorry it took awhile to reply to you and tell you the news. It's just I did as you said -- I threw my phone aside and well, I happened to be on a roof so it went off the edge.

It took a day to replace it, but at least, Mashita and I were able to talk properly together.

You were right that he was the one I should be asking those questions to, and it really does work out when you reach out to the person that you love. Who knew?

Well, I guess you knew.

[simpers]

Good lord, Yashiki, I didn't mean it literally.

(if he stopped there, the world would understand. he doesn't, of course.)

Never mind me, what did he say? Have you two decided to try together?

1/2

[reimaginedself]

[ Oh. ]

Oh.

That makes sense.

2/3

[reimaginedself]

He actually had feelings for me, too.

[ Even reading that, he can't quite believe it. But Mashita did. He covers his face for a second, feeling embarrassed about having admitted it. Ugh. Is that the right feeling? It feels like embarrassment, but the embarrassment comes from just how happy that he feels. ]

[reimaginedself]

Yes, we are going to try.

[ Ah, so embarrassing... are all first loves like this? ]

1/2

[simpers]

Then excuse my premature congratulations and let me express them now when they're more applicable:

I'm so happy for you.

I'd like to take you both out to celebrate sometime soon, if I may. Of course, I have ulterior motives; I want to meet the man myself and see what all the fuss is about.

2/2

[simpers]

That last bit is a joke.

(gotta' cover all his fucking bases now that yashiki's graduated to "Too Literal" in his mind)

un: commander.spock

[tsansat]

Mr. Kazuo.

[ yeah that's right you aren't free ]

Oh gosh!!

[reimaginedself]

Mr. Yashiki, if you would.

[ OnLy My BoYFrieND cAN cALL me KAzuo. ]

Hello, I guess your name is actually Commander Spock???

[tsansat]

Very well, Mr. Yashiki.

Indeed, as it has always been. I understand there was a case of mistaken identity.

[reimaginedself]

Yes, there was.

I'm sorry for having thought you were my friend! But I do really appreciate the fact that you were willing to listen to me at all.

[tsansat]

So you are also now educated on the misconception.

I wanted to ensure that your relationship with Mr. Touchdown had not been adversely affected.

1/2

[reimaginedself]

I was.

[reimaginedself]

[ He was worried about that? Commander Spock was? ]

Oh no. We're fine. We had a brief talk about it and everything is all right.

[ It was only adversely affected for a little while, but there's no need to make him feel bad for his mistake! ]

You really are a very kind person.

[tsansat]

[ How should he respond to such an accusation?

In person, away from anyone from which to shield his emotions, his eyes soften. It's a compliment, a genuine meaningful one, and a lifetime of repression has him guarded against it immediately. ]

I was directly involved with the misunderstanding itself. It is only appropriate to rectify the situation.

While I did not support your decision, I wish you well.

[reimaginedself]

I feel if I had used "Travis" at least once, we could have saved ourselves some trouble.

Thank you for wishing me well. It went well, by the way.

[ He isn't the best at talking to people. It is either having his own ten-page monologue in his head or letting his thoughts free flow out his mouth. There is no real in-between. ]

Still, I want to say that I'm glad I didn't save us the trouble. Because then I would not have been able to meet you, Commander Spock.

[tsansat]

I believe the problem in actuality was your refusal to believe that we did indeed not know one another.

[ Which... perhaps comes out a little harsher than intended, but tone doesn't carry well over text and especially not a tone like his. ]

Your point is taken, however, and would be best accompanied with a formal introduction. My name is Spock, first officer aboard the USS Enterprise and Federation representative.

1/2

[reimaginedself]

[ HE'S VERY RIGHT ABOUT THAT... GOSH!

But it's nice that Commander Spock is so understanding... ]